From Stephe’s desk: Dedicated to my mom.
I’m only able to get about a third of the way through this song these days (the one Rain sang for his mother earlier in his career, “Can’t Get Used To It (Iksukchjil Anhaso) 익숙치 않아서”, from his debut album n001), but I still want to dedicate it to my mom here. His reason for singing the song during his concerts, and why he eventually stopped, touched my mom deeply and was one of the reasons she was such a Rain fan.
This is for you, mama. I can’t get used to it, you being gone, but it’ll be all right… someday. ^@@^
[fan made] RAIN Waiting for RAIN4 慣れなくて. (Courtesy of k2353644 @YT)
Cloud USA 
Thank you very much Isi, Stephe and Terri for the explanation. I knew about his mother I had no idea of what happened in NYC at Madison Square Garden when he sang the song. I hope in the future when he gets his own family it is not going to be that painful anymore and he might sing it again. 😍
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Crying now. Stephe, I am sorry you had to go through that loss. I think you can understand Rain better than those of us who have not yet experienced this.
Thank you for sharing this beautiful video. Where and when was the live performance at the end? I haven’t seen it before.
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Hi, isil. 🙂 I’m pretty sure it was in Japan around 2005ish, but I don’t know the show…
I just try to remember that so many people before me and Jim have had to go through losing their moms, and that if Rain can make it and they can make it, I must give it my all and make it too.
Thanks for being so sweet.
Stephe ^@@^
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Thanks Stephe for posting this song. I know I may sound silly for asking this question. And I’m sure you already posted this info previously in the blog. But what was the reason for Rain to sing this song and then stopped singing it?
God bless you, your mom and your family. On this time of reflection on that special person that was your mom.
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Hi Iluvia!
What I heard is that the song reminds Rain of his mother and how she was left to deal with things alone when his dad went to South America to try to make money for the family. The song talks about not being able to get used to doing things alone.
I don’t know why he stopped singing it. I would like to know that, too.
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As I understand it, he stopped singing it because he just couldn’t make it through the song anymore. It got too painful.
I think one of those really painful times might have been in NYC at Madison Square Garden. In Korea and Asia, fans already knew about his mom and that he sang it for her and they showed respect whenever he did it, but Americans didn’t know that yet and totally misinterpreted it. The video I saw had him asking for quiet so he could dedicate the song and sing it the way he usually did, but women in the audience, poor ignorant things, continued to catcall and offer themselves to him. He wasn’t a happy camper. I can’t imagine how he managed to get through it that night and how upset he must have initially been after getting backstage. JiHoon thrives on being connected to his audience and I’m sure it disturbed him somewhat when he appeared not to be.
This is my own interpretation of what happened. There is no way of knowing if this played a part in him no longer singing the song or not. I do remember, though, in an interview when he said it was just too painful to get all the way through the song anymore.
Stephe ^@@^
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Yes, Stephe. That’s what I heard too.
Such a beautiful song, though. I do hope that someday he will feel the urge to sing it again for us–and for his mom.
Terri :-}
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If I was him, if the audience continued the catcalls after I had kindly asked them for quiet. I would have stopped in the middle of the song and just stood there until they shut up. Who knows, I may even pull up a chair and sit down to just wait. Oh, they would have thought that was a part of the show too, until Several minutes of no music and no sound had passed. Then after a few minutes of the audience wondering “what’s wrong with him” and when complete silence finally would have taken over the “house” I would say…….”Now, I would like to continue with my song dedication to my mother”……………………..
Sometimes you have to make people feel dumb in order to get your point across. Nobody likes to be made to feel that way of course, but when people act that way sometimes you have to go there. Reminds of the “test of wills” I had going with my boss (years ago). She wanted me to water the office plants, but didn’t respect me enough to ask and assumed I would just do it because she was the boss…..NOT. This mind you after she asked us our opinions and we all said get artificial plants, less maintenance. She took that as a personal affront to her “leadership” I guess and bought live plants anyway. Since I worked directly with her, I would get the brunt of her boss BS whenever she felt like screwing with the staff. She was one of those bosses who felt like “you will do this menial task too, just cause.” What she didn’t know is I am my Daddy’s daughter and I was SO NOT going to water office plants that she bought for herself, even if “other duties can be assigned.” Those suckers damn near dry rotted. (SMILES) She tried everything…she tried to embarrass me into doing it, she tried to guilt me into doing it. She knew it would have been just too outrageous to “order” me to water some plants. However, she finally got the point, I was Never going to water those plants….never. She does it, yes to this day…even after all these years. I wanna make it clear. Did I think I was too good to water them?…No. I would have gladly watered the plants BUT she disrespected me from the beginning and wanted me to “take it” and that wasn’t gonna happen. Not even in a small situation like that. Don’t let people disrespect you not even in small situations.
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thank you for allowing me to be a part of your Cloud and Rain world. I am a big fan and follower.
I feel what all of you are saying you never get over loosing a parent. I lost both of mine and everything seems to remind me of something about them Stephe, I know you do not know me, but I wish you well, take care and be strong. Rain is a sure sign of strength, he kept pushing on
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Hi, Robin. 🙂 Thanks for your encouraging words.
Stephe ^@@^
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No problem, straight from the heart
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Aww, thanks, ladies, for all of your kind and comforting comments. They are SO appreciated. ❤
Stephe ^@@^
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Stephe there are a few of Rain’s songs that I can’t hear without crying and this one is one of them. There is so much pain and longing in it that it just breaks my heart in tiny pieces. My eldest girl is 18 years old right now, about that same age Rain lost his mom and I know is a vulnerable age were you are old enough to take some responsibilities but at the same time you are still a child at heart. Rain lost his mom and took responsibility for the well being of his sister and himself at a time when he was so young; I can’t begin to imagine how difficult it was to keep himself together and make a living for his family. That’s one of the many reasons I admire Rain cuz he never gave up. Stephe my prayers are with you my friend. Big hug.
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Beautiful video and song stephe. Wherever your mom is now, and for all the love she left behind, I am sure, even after your pain is healed, you will rejoice in the grace of having been a part of her, and have shared your love for rain^^
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Awww….Stephe! I can never make it thru that song! Your mom had to be a great woman…she left us a wonderful gift…YOU! Big hugs and love!
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*sigh* ah Stephe,
I can´t stand watching Rain singing this song. Every time it comes out on the playlist everything freezes, I stop doing whatever I´m doing no matter what and my moment becomes glum.
I don´t own anything valuable in this lifetime. But I own Life and a soul, and, souls linger through space and time. If by giving away my entire Soul I could change a fact, this would be it, JiHoon never been put through this sort of pain.
❝You would have mommy back or rather never being taken away from you❞.
You see, Clouds, this man is worth any-anything to me for a simple reason: he is a person who´s existance makes sense to me… So, if only I had the power. Oh, my sweet God if I had the power. If I could do one, ONE GREAT thing with my life, please, God, let it be this. Please.
For obvious reasons I can´t say this is one of my favorite Rain´s songs, because I´d like this song didn´t exist.
❝If at least I could save you ONE night of agony on this issue, JiHoon, my love. I would❞.
[Tight hug to Stephe ❤]
Adriana ☆
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It’s so moving….. This song touches me so much because of the mothers!!! I’m a mother, too and I almost lost my life a few years ago…
I’m crying, but I think it is good! And good for everybody! When the tears go down you musn’t hide the feelings….It is Rain and it is why we love him!
Thank you so much for sharing it!
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This song is full of emotion, glad you and your mom know Rain well enough that he would sing her a song. I love it
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Thanks Stephe! Very, very nicely done.
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